My Story

Mystory

Hello my friends, this is my story:

I am an Emotion, Body, and Belief Code Practitioner. (Energy healing Practitioner).

Why do I do what I do?

Well, because…I have had many struggles in my life. Depression, debilitating anxiety, sexual abuse, health issues, food sensitivities, Diabetes, thyroid issues, digestive disorders…(so much so, that I was on a diet of chicken broth, rice and chicken for 3 years!!)

I always felt like I was looking at my life from the outside. Never connected. Always wondering why I didn’t fit in. Why did I struggle? Why is everything so hard? What was wrong with me? Every day, a symptom, an ailment, a battle, a struggle.

Doctors were of no help to me, so very early on I realized I was on my own. I was always drawn to the more holistic, natural and energetic way of doing things. Without the side effects. Trying to address the root cause of things. Somehow knowing there is more to this than can be analyzed by an M.D. in a 10-minute appointment. There are layers of stuff going on here.

When I became aware that emotions are 93% of the cause of health issues, I realized that this was a no brainer. I always felt like I was caught up in a tornado of emotions. Not knowing what they were, what they meant, or what the hell to do with them. They were a jumbled mess, comparable to the big ball of entangled Christmas lights. You just don’t know where to begin.

So, I played with and experimented with the Emotion Code. Releasing emotion after emotion, probably over 400! I also released all the emotions creating my heart wall. Honestly, I didn’t feel much at first. I would get the immediate relief, which was awesome but there was still always something else.

That’s the thing about this work. It can be profound and immediate, or very subtle. But then I looked back and saw how much my life had changed that next year. I got married, which I swore I would never do…again. I always thought the only way for me to survive was to be on my own. But somehow, I attracted to me the man of my dreams. Actually he was better than my dreams. The old me didn’t know my worth, didn’t know that I deserved to be loved and cherished and treated well. We then bought a house… I travelled overnight for the first time in 15 years… (part of my anxiety). My digestive issues improved. Little by little, the variety of foods I could eat expanded, and now I can eat pretty much whatever I want. Holy crap! How did all of that happen?!?

Then my mom got sick, and the certification for the Emotion Code and Body Code came into my email box. A sign? Maybe. But I took it. It wasn’t about me anymore. I needed to do whatever I could to help her. I got certified and worked on her remotely, while she was in the hospital and during recovery. Releasing layers and layers of emotional gunk and trauma. Along with her medical team and this work, she is doing tremendously well, and I couldn’t be more grateful.

Since then, the stories and reports back to me of the things I’ve done and lives I’ve changed because of this, is truly amazing! To be a part of such healing work is humbling and beautiful.

And that’s my story of why I do what I do.

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How are those Resolutions working out for ya?

resolution working for ya?

What if it’s not your fault?

Maybe you set some resolutions or intentions this year, maybe you didn’t.

Maybe you worked really hard for a day and a half and then forgot, lost interest, stopped, got discouraged, or it was too hard.

Maybe you figured what’s the point from the get-go.

Maybe you don’t know what you really want.

What if I told you, maybe none of that is your fault?

Weekly Focus- Blocks and programming that keep you stuck.

There are probably areas of your childhood (most of our programming and beliefs are created by the age of 8) that are affecting you to this day.

Things that you wouldn’t even realize still bother you.

These things still affect how you live and even the decisions you make on a daily basis.

You made conclusions about how life works. What you’re worthy of. Conclusions about what’s possible and what is not. You observed behaviors that were modeled to you. Words that were spoken, which formed the belief about who you are.

All of these are things that could be keeping you stuck.

Do any of these sound like you?

  • You have trouble finding clarity around what it is you want.
  • You self-sabotage when things are going well.
  • You have trouble setting goals and sticking with them or even starting them.
  • You seem to repeat the same patterns.
  • You’re stuck in your comfort zone.
  • You have trouble getting or staying motivated.
  • You procrastinate.
  • You don’t think things can or will ever be different.

How many of those made you cringe a little?

If you would like some help with any of these areas, the work that I do has profound ability to address the unconscious thoughts, programs, beliefs and patterns that are silently directing your life.

What would it feel like if you could let go of all of that?

Who would you be without that?

What would it hurt to try?

Wouldn’t you like to see what could be possible?

How it could feel to break free?

If you would like to release some blocks and/or mental programming that are standing in your way and help open you up to the possibilities in your life, don't hesitate to reach out! Comment on this post or send me an email at unfilteredsunshine2018@gmail.com or go to my website to learn more.

What if Depression is Ok?

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Depression

Depression has so many faces and so many stages and factors: hormones, cycles, life stages, grief, loss, seasonal affective disorder (SAD is a real thing. It involves science behind a season with more dark and less light, messing with our circadian rhythm, among other things) From the fleeting mood that lasts a few days to the deep, hopelessness that can go on for years.

It can be debilitating.

I get it.

I see you.

You are not alone.

You think you should just “get over it” but it’s not that easy, is it?

This darkness, the shadows lurking in the corner…you know you want to be better, you know you should do something to feel better.

But that’s just it, isn’t it? In this moment, you don’t really want to feel better…

Well of course you do…But the effort…eh!

You don’t want to put forth the effort it requires. You don’t want to pretend. For now, you want to wallow in your self-destructive pity.

No judgement… that’s how I feel when I’m in it. Everything in your head, and out your mouth is negative. You hear it, but you can’t stop it. Everything seems to be going wrong. Nothing is working and nothing makes sense.

You may put on a friendly smile but there is an emptiness in those eyes.

But sometimes, in that darkness, in the stillness, you get answers. You get clarity. Be patient and listen. You may see what is no longer working in your life anymore. Things that you may need to let go of that are no longer serving you. You may get inspiration for things you can change. Inspiration to do what you’ve always wanted to do. Things that wouldn’t have gotten your attention otherwise.

You may get nothing. Just meet with the darkness and sit with it awhile. Without judgement of it, or of yourself, and just be.

Depression

In this world, nothing is permanent, not even our struggles. Acceptance and openness are the first steps in lifting yourself up and creating change.

If you need to talk to someone, reach out. I know in my moments, that’s the last thing I wanted to do. But it does help. Write it out. Yell it out! Give your feelings a voice. They just want to be heard, like everyone else.

And when you feel the shift happening, go with it.

Dress up! Make yourself feel pretty (or handsome), even if it is from bedroom to couch. Do something kind to yourself or for someone else. Go for a walk. Do something creative. Journal. Read something inspirational. Give yourself a break. Give yourself credit. Write down 5 things you are good at, and then 5 more.

Depression

And if you want additional support, the work that I do has profound ability to address the areas that are keeping you stuck in the loop of despair and hopelessness. There are probably areas of your childhood (most of our programming and beliefs are created by the age of 8) that are affecting you to this day. Things that you wouldn’t even realize still bother you. Things that still affect how you live and even the decisions you make on a daily basis.

Things that could also be contributing to your depression.

What would it feel like if you could let go of all of that? Who would you be without that? What would it hurt to try?

Comment or email me if you would like to see what could be possible. How it would feel to break free!

Challenges

Challenges make life interesting
Sometimes it feels like the road is always uphill, there’s one more obstacle, one more ‘thing’ standing in our way.
 
Sometimes it feels like we’ll never get better, or never reach our goals.
 
Although we may not like dealing with our challenges,
 
Can we see that with each stepping stone, roadblock, or speedbump in our way,
 
Comes a tremendous amount of growth?
 
Can we recognize the incredible strength it takes, strength that maybe we didn’t know we had?
 
Can we appreciate the victories of getting through, past or over all the things that challenge us? Big or small.
 
Can we realize that because of these things, we become more capable of handling the day to day slaps in the face.
 
Our ability to trust ourselves strengthens.
 
We can see the greatness in what we can achieve.
 
So instead of feeling like the world and everything is out to get us,
 
Empower ourselves to know, we can go out into the world and get everything!
 
In love and light and a life of meaning!

Where You Want to Be

Where you want to be
I know I waste a lot of time focusing and fearing the future.
What’s next? What’s to come?
Anticipation of, and speculation about up-coming events, and worst-case scenarios.
 
It seems most of us are planning for this, preparing for that.
Racing against the clock to get things done, to fit it all in.
 
Which is also why most of us are filled with stress, anxiety and exhaustion.
 
The very reason we have anxiety, is from living in the future.
 
Hoping for this outcome, dreading that thing, wishing for this to happen, praying that doesn’t happen…etc.
 
None of us are actually in this moment, we can’t see that right here and now, all we need to do is just be.
Be at our job, doing what we can, today.
Be with that person, spouse, child or friend. And be completely present with them. Focused 100% on our time, interaction and conversation with them.
And just as important, be with ourselves.
Acknowledge that we are doing our very best.
And however we are feeling, it’s just one day. Honor ourselves and how we feel.
 
I think it would take a lot of pressure off if we just focused on this day, these 24 hours.
Make the most of these precious hours, prioritize what’s important, and just be there fully with whatever that day holds.
 
Wishing you all the most amazing 1440 minutes!
 
In love and light!

Our Journey

Maybe the journey isn't about becoming anything
We all come into this world perfect.
Pure, innocent, honest and authentic.
 
Our hearts are wide open.
Full of love, and hope.
 
Our eyes are bright with curiosity, wonder, and awe.
 
As we travel through life,
we experience difficulty, disappointment, and struggles.
We begin to add layers of protection around us,
to shield us from all that is painful.
 
We tell ourselves stories of why things happen,
and begin to close our hearts,
as the brightness in our eyes begin to fade.
 
We think that we have to be more than we are,
We have to do better,
Be better.
 
We have to find our purpose.
 
But what if our purpose is to be US!
The same pure, innocent, honest and authentic self we came here as.
We don’t have to become anything.
We are already enough!
 
Our only challenge is removing the layers we’ve added.
Re-telling our stories, so we see the lesson and growth,
more than the pain.
 
Knowing we are worthy of all the good in this world,
and knowing we are a part of that,
that we have an impact on the lives we touch.
No matter how small the gesture,
Our presence means something to everyone we come in contact with.
 
So instead of thinking we have to do something to become who we were meant to be,
Why don’t we just start BEing who we have always truly been?
 
In love and light!
 

Life as an Introvert

Introvert
Oh the life of an introvert!
 
Which is also the life of an empath, or HSP (Highly Sensitive Person).
 
And when you are all three….
 
Just as much as we need their understanding,
 
We really need them to have a sense of humor!
 
It’s tough making you’re way through life overwhelmed and constantly on sensory overload.
 
When your nervous system is in overdrive, it’s pretty much game over!
 
Oh how we wish we were normal, and it was easy to get excited about plans and events.
 
I’ve always said, everything sounds fun in the future…
 
But when it gets down to it, and it’s time to go…whaa. whaaa.
 
Usually the most excitement we feel is when our plans are cancelled!
 
So, I ask, if you have a friend who is an introvert, an empath, or an HSP, don’t leave them out.
 
Invite them, include them.
 
Just know,
that they won’t know,
if they’re actually coming until 5 minutes before,
they most likely will be arriving late,
and their stay might be short.
 
But love them, laugh with them, and appreciate the effort it takes.
 
These sensitive beings have all kinds of wonderful qualities that make them unique, special and unlike anyone you’ve ever known.
 
Send them that invite, just know that the term R.S.V.P. does not apply to them.
 
In love and light!

Stepping Stones

Stepping stones
It is very easy to feel defeated,
 
when things don’t go the way you would like them to,
 
or you feel as if you let yourself, or someone else down.
 
We all try to do the very best we can, in any given situation.
 
Sometimes, that doesn’t turn out the way we imagined it would.
 
Instead of beating ourselves up,
 
can we open up a little bit of space,
 
to acknowledge the struggle,
 
to remove any judgement about the situation, or about ourselves,
 
and recognize,
 
that if we could, we would have.
 
If it was meant to be, it would be.
 
We put so much pressure on ourselves to be perfect.
 
To fulfill all expectations.
 
What if we just allowed ourselves to Be.
 
Be who we are.
 
Be how we are,
 
and let that be enough.
 
In love and light!

Breaking the Patterns

Courage to break the patterns
We all have our comfort zones.
 
Some have comfort in chaos and pain.
~Although unhealthy, it may be all we know.
 
Others find comfort in routine.
~doing the same things over and over because it is reliable.
 
We all do what makes sense for us.
~For our survival.
~For our sanity.
~Because we just may not know any better, or know another way.
 
I’m at a point where I am no longer comfortable being comfortable in my comfort zone.
~Reread that. I swear that makes sense..
 
I want more out of life.
 
I want to live my life.
 
The very thought of stepping out and doing something different is absolutely terrifying!!
~Frozen in fear.
~Exhausted with the amount of energy it takes to move out of my comfort.
 
But I think, I think, just beyond that fear and dread, and exhaustion, is where we find our courage.
 
That is where we let go of what’s not working for us and holding us back.
 
And that’s where we step into a whole new world of possibilities!
 
In love and light and finding our courage!

Faith

Faith
None of us like to look at the things that are wrong.
 
It feels awful to be uncomfortable.
 
We all want to resist the problems, the concerns, our feelings, and the reality of what’s happening.
 
But if we can just sit with it,
 
Notice and acknowledge that it’s there,
 
There comes a freedom with that.
 
We’re not adding to our misery by fighting it.
 
Sometimes we don’t need to fix it.
 
We can accept that we are temporarily not where we want to be.
 
Sometimes we need to embrace the darkness before we can accept the light.
 
Then, in time, turn back to Faith.
 
Knowing that the light will shine again,
 
Things will get better.
 
This too shall pass, and we will begin again.
 
In love and light and Faith!

Grace

You learn grace
We don’t often know what to do with our emotions.
 
We don’t always want to deal with them.
 
Some of us try to run from them.
 
Some search for someone else to blame for them.
 
And most of us don’t even understand them!
 
When life hands us a difficult situation or struggle, we all too often want to blame, shame or complain.
 
Which is understandable.
 
We don’t want to go through it or deal with it.
 
We don’t want to search through the mess or the pain of what we’re feeling.
 
We might even want to throw a tantrum.
 
We have all been there.
 
Which is exactly why we learn compassion for others when they are doing the same.
 
That is why we allow them space to sort through the mess.
 
That is also why we don’t take their projections personally.
Their words and actions may hurt, but that is when we remember it has nothing to do with us.
 
It is their own internal struggle.
 
We don’t have to tolerate their behavior, but maybe we can find a little compassion and understanding for them.
 
In doing so, that is where we learn grace.
 
In love and light!

Life Is Not Black and White

Life is not black and white, color
We all expect life to come with a rule book.
 
Something we can refer to when things get hard, or we don’t know what to do.
 
It would be nice to know all the answers, have some guidelines, and a guarantee of a certain outcome.
 
But life is not that way.
 
Life is messy.
 
Life is hard.
 
Life is a constant game of trial and error, mistakes and lessons, and success and failures.
 
There are no rules.
 
I think we all strive to do the best we can, and be the best we can with what’s available to us.
Whether that’s knowledge, or strengths, or through lessons learned.
 
We all have our own stories, our own paths and reasons for doing what we do.
 
Who are we to judge what is right for someone else?
 
Who are we to decide their choices are right or wrong?
 
They may be doing exactly what they need to, to find their path, follow their heart, and to be their best self.
 
I think we can all have a little more compassion, a little more love, for those around us.
 
Let’s blur those lines a little.
 
Get rid of thinking things have to be a certain way.
 
Add a little color to our lives and take some risks.
 
We can only benefit for what we learn along the way.
 
 
In love and light and COLOR!!
 

Negativity

Negativity

Negativity is a dark cloud.
An easy trap to fall into.
When all you can see is what is going wrong, negativity becomes your bitter friend.
You can also be the most positive person around, and if all you are surrounded with is blame, shame, complain, you too can fall into this darkness.
We must protect our energies, choose our surroundings, and decide our tribe of people we want to be around.
As an empath, I really have to be careful with this one, as I tend to take on the energies of others.
When things go dark, it is hard to find the light.
But, if I can remember to harness my shield, withdraw from groups of gossip, repel attacks of judgement, and return to who I really am, it makes things so much easier to find all the good in the world.
I can then see my light.
I can be a point of inspiration, a place of comfort and a person of authenticity.
And that is who I choose to be.
With that, comes beauty and wonderful opportunities in my life.
I get to experience life from a place of hope.
I get to see, and be grateful for all the things I’m blessed with.
My hope is that we can all look for that silver lining in every situation. Not everything that happens can be changed, but we CAN change what we do with it.
In love and light! and distance from negativity!

Worry

Worry is a waste of a good imagination

If they gave out awards for worrying, this is an area I would excel in.
I have spent the majority of my life worrying.
Worry about if I was good enough.
Worry about what others thought of me.
Worry about things that might happen.
Worry about things that didn’t happen.
Worry. Worry. Worry.
If only I had known how much I limited myself by worrying.
How many things I missed, avoided, or cancelled out because of it.
How many great ideas, amazing adventures and wonderful
opportunities I allowed myself to worry myself out of.
Imagine if I could allow myself to explore the limitless boundaries
of my imagination and run with it, instead of shrink away from it.
The unlimited possibilities.
The beauty and surprises of life.
Why waste so much energy on worrying about what might be,
or could happen, and experience nothing?
Instead, why not be in the moment,
make the best of what IS happening,
and experience everything?

Let our imagination run wild and free!

In love and light!

Thorn Bushes

Rose and thorn bushes
Is the glass half full or half empty?
 
You get to decide.
 
Do you focus on what’s wrong in any given situation or
do you see the potential?
 
Do you focus on the dark or
can you see the light at the end of the tunnel?
 
Are you burdened by the difficulty you’re going through or
can you see the opportunity within it?
 
We all go through hardships, trauma, sickness and pain.
 
But it’s in those moments that we need to recognize that these things, although difficult to deal with, bring us messages we need to hear.
 
They bring us opportunities to grow.
 
Not everything is happening to us, but FOR us.
 
Can you see the silver lining?
 
Can you be willing to look at things a different way?
 
In love and light, my dear friends
and a garden full of roses!