Committed to Crazy

specific kind of crazy, committed

Oh my God! Isn’t that the truth?

When I first saw this quote, I just had to laugh….Hard!
We all know that someone or maybe several someones that just make you shake your head and say…Really??! But they’re really committed to it, so it’s like, Wow! At least they’re really good at something!
To understand someone’s mind is not something easily done. So you might as well just stop trying.
Let’s face it, there are some delusional, hateful, hurtful and narcissistic people out there. People who lie to get what they want. Even worse, the ones that believe their own lies and manipulate others to better themselves.
It’s hard to be the bigger person when you have people like that around you. I know, because I had to deal with some very judgmental, very delusional, and hateful people strongly in my face the last couple years. I saw first hand how ugly people can be.

I experienced the whole handbag of vicious behavior, from stalking, to defamation of character, invasion of privacy, threats, lies, deceit, manipulation, egotistical control.. just to name a few… Lol. That handbag apparently had no bottom to it!
The list could go on and on, but it was a series of non stop, repugnant behavior, yes, repugnant. That’s a strong word. An awful, but beautiful word that encapsulates the picture I’m trying to paint.
Even after all of that, I think the hardest part was watching the tsunami of pain and anger affect the innocent ones, the distasteful way they hurt family and friends. I can take a bit of crazy, but that’s a low blow. It truly broke my heart. Taking friends, family, and everyone down around them with their pain.
Which is what all of that is about anyway. They are acting from their own pain, their own insecurities. It’s not about me. They may not be able to see their own stuff, or know how to take responsibility for it. That’s all they know. I do believe everyone does the best they can with what they know.
So, moral of the story, you may not like or understand the specific kind of crazy in your life or out in the world, but that is not your business, that is not your problem. It starts with you. Be what you want to see in the world. Be someone you can be proud of. Admire their commitment to their crazy and use it for inspiration to combat it with equal velocity of love, kindness and beauty.

In love and light!

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Fear or Fearless?

fear, fearless

Whaaa-t?!?
I have known this concept.

I have heard this concept.

There are many teachings about this concept.
And I think the simplicity of that statement is understood on some level.
But…I have had a really hard time truly understanding this concept.
If that were true…
I would be a sky diving, bungee jumping, lunging from buildings, risk taking freak show!
I know fear. I mean I Knoooow fear.

I have a deep intimate relationship with fear that some could consider unhealthy. LOL.

So why then, am I not some insane, thrill seeking, adrenaline junkie?
The teachings all say that you can’t experience one without the other.

You can’t see light without the dark.

You can’t know one thing without knowing its opposite.
I get the idea of contrast.
get that things would always be the same without it.
What I don’t get, is after knowing decades of fear, why is it that I don’t yet know, what it is to be fearless?
Maybe it’s my definition of the word fearless?
Maybe I discount all the times I have been fearless because it wasn’t what I thought it should look like or I wasn’t, at the times I needed to be the most?
Maybe it’s bringing me to be grateful and notice all the times I was?
When all I want to do is push away the times that I am not, maybe it’s asking me to really appreciate the difference?
To notice the strength it took.
To notice my resilience in the times I overcame a fear or obstacle.
Noticing that, in that moment, I AM Fearless.

In love and light and knowing the difference.

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I’m curious, what does this quote mean to you? What is your understanding of it? I would love to hear different view points and maybe more clarity into my own understanding. Leave a comment and explore this meaning with me.

Take the First Step

stake the first step

This is a very relatable quote in my life.
I’m the type of person that needs to see the whole picture. I need to know the outcome of any given situation, before I can move forward.
And, I must admit, even then, it’s still hard to move forward. Doubts, insecurities, and what if questions come flooding in.
I want to know the answer before I even know the question! I want to know the outcome before I even take the first step.
Looking at things this way can be extremely overwhelming! For crying out loud, look at all of those steps! That staircase is massive!! How will I ever get to the top?!
It’s no wonder that climb is intimidating. No wonder things don’t get accomplished. And no wonder I stay exactly where I am.
Not to mention, going about life and goals this way, sure takes away the magic and surprises of your day to day experiences.
So, my challenge is to take away the whole staircase. It’s a little less daunting that way.
Take away the how, and the outcome, and just focus on the first step. What’s one thing I can do right now that moves me in the direction I want to go?
Take that one step, which will then unfold into the next step and the next.
Before you know it you’ll be at the top of that staircase, looking down, surprised and rewarded with how far you’ve come.
Allowing the best outcomes to reveal themselves one step at a time.

In love and light and taking that first step!

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