If they gave out awards for worrying, this is an area I would excel in. I have spent the majority of my life worrying. Worry about if I was good enough. Worry about what others thought of me. Worry about things that might happen. Worry about things that didn’t happen. Worry. Worry. Worry. If only I had known how much I limited myself by worrying. How many things I missed, avoided, or cancelled out because of it. How many great ideas, amazing adventures and wonderful opportunities I allowed myself to worry myself out of. Imagine if I could allow myself to explore the limitless boundaries of my imagination and run with it, instead of shrink away from it. The unlimited possibilities. The beauty and surprises of life. Why waste so much energy on worrying about what might be, or could happen, and experience nothing? Instead, why not be in the moment, make the best of what IS happening, and experience everything?
We are in a time where we want what we want and we want it yesterday. Everything is about instant gratification. Nothing is good enough or fast enough. We are impatient. Therefore, we are also stressed.
We try to control every outcome. Stress. We try to line things up perfectly. Stress. We need it done now!! Stress.
What if we could trust that everything was going to work out?
Could you give up the need to make everything happen a certain way and by a certain time? Could you let go and surrender to a power bigger than you? Can you have faith and trust that you are being taken care of?
I hope that we can all learn to let go a little, get out of our own way, and relax… Knowing that everything is happening perfectly. Have Faith.
When everything you’ve always wanted is standing right in front of you…
When your wishes and dreamscancome true…
That is when fear decides to raise its ugly head.
Is it because all of those things remove you from your reality as you know it? Whether your reality is good or bad or somewhere in between, at least you know what to expect from it. Youknowhow to navigate it.
Is it because now you have something to lose? Can you handle the disappointment, the let down, the agonizing heartbreak (once again) if you lose it all?
Is it because you don’t think you are worthy or deserve it? And why is that? Who says? What ever gave you the idea that you deserve less than what you’ve always wanted? And why have you always reached for and settled for things that were so small?
Is it just plain self sabotage? You tell yourself, ‘Let’s just break this possibility before it breaks me.’
Is it simply because you’ve made it out to be so much more than it actually is? With that, comes so much pressure. What happens when reality sinks in? What happens when things aren’t perfect…when you’re not perfect? What if it’s not enough? What if you’re not enough?
Unfortunately, I don’t have the answers to these questions. I , myself, have fallen off course. But I do know, I’m not that far off course. I do know that these are just thoughts. Irrational thoughts maybe, and they don’t hold any truth. This is also the time that I know I need to honor myself, and these irrational thoughts and fears. Honor that they are very real for me. This is the time that I need to take a step back. A time to find my center of gravity. Allow myself to re- align with who I truly am. Get back on course. Not to fix a problem or even say that I have a problem, but just to simply allow space to let things naturally resolve themselves.
It might also be helpful to acknowledge that I am in the process of breaking down barriers and long held beliefs or patterns. To realize that I am not going backwards, but maybe just shedding another layer or two that will allow me to escalate to the next level. Hopefully once and for all, leaving behind what I used to know and all the pain that goes with it!
Fear can be very convincing and very debilitating. Fear can make you believe things that aren’t true. Fear can confuse your reality.
If we can allow ourselves to see through all the muck and the mud, see ourselves as valuable, worthy and capable, we can also allow ourselves to deflect those fears and insecurities, and the doubts that keep us stuck. Where finally, FINALLY, we can move forward with out the darkness and gloom, replacing it with excitement and hope for what’s to come. All the good we deserve to have and never allowed ourselves to see. Opening up to possibilities that we may have previously rejected.
Can you imagine the life you could have, if you knew you deserved to have it? And guess what? You do!! We all do! How remarkable!!